July 20, 2011, I posted a blog titled “Locker number 49”. That included my experiences during my early days in Malaysia. I used to work as a part time banquet attendant in Grand Millennium Hotel in the heart of the city. I earned $5 an hour and I worked as long as 18 hours in a day. It was a hard earned experience during those days. I always told myself that someday I’ll get myself served on these tables. Someday.Last night, 26th June 2015, nearly 4 years after I went to Grand Millennium hotel and bought a buffet dinner $138 each in a fine suit. I was filled with pride and triumph of being able to see and feel the a dream come true right in front of eyes. I was on the other side of the buffet lane this time with a liberty of choosing anything I would want. Most of my hunger was filled with the surprising looks by some of the previous colleagues who were still working there; and some with happiness. I didn’t eat much but that was the best dinner I ever had. An Indian chef who knew me well, made me a special butter bread that made me feel so special. My old supervisors were still working there and they were glad to see me advance pass them. In short, it was an amazing experience of a dinner that brought me a vivid picture of who I used to be and who I am today.
The journey was not easy but I never gave up. I started to believe in courage, rage, hope, believe and expectations. It wasn’t easy. If it was easy, everyone would do it. I’m glad made it this far. I’m glad I chose not to give up and strive to make myself a different person today. I’m glad I took those decisions that were way too risky for me. I’m just glad where I’m today.
I wouldn’t say my life is perfect today but its contented. Struggles of moving forward are everlasting but to be able to find myself working in one of the top-ten multinational companies in the world from a small time waiter – well I would say it was an amazing journey and I’m glad I made it here. I’m glad I chose myself to be here.
Self-belief is most important thing in life. People would come and tell you that you can’t do certain things because they themselves can’t. One person’s opinion can never be your reality. You know in your head the truth of your life. Trust me, when you achieve a smallest goal that you’ve set in your life, it gives you the happiness and freedom that you would never feel again.
Moira Rogers once wrote, “The two hardest things to say in life are hello for the first time and goodbye for the last.” It certainly brings smile and deep thought in our minds when we think how can a Hello be the hardest thing to say. We end up saying numerous hellos and goodbyes in a whole day and we don’t even remember them at the end of the day. It’ harder when it comes to someone who is on your mind. Life is quite complex and complicated when it comes to meeting new people. it can be difficult to meet new people, however, sometimes, you might feel like you have to repress or modify your personality a bit, and stick your neck out there and expose yourself to some potentially uncomfortable situations. The effort tends to pay off, but oddly enough, the older we get, the more difficult it becomes to meet new people. And sometimes it is better not to ask an uncomfortable question or reveal the affection for someone who might bring unintentional pain. It is better to keep quite and preserve what you have left. It is a general phenomenon that people push hard to become what they think is ideal to fit into a new society or a social group. I believe, it is better to stay the person you are and wait, until the environment recognizes you. The new environment may not be like the one you’ve been into in the past or something that you’ve anticipated. Sometimes one should need to step out of the person they used to be and try to become the person they are or the person they want to be. Certain situations really test your emotional strengths. Most of the times you say or do things that you never wished for and they lead you towards some unwanted results. Expectations play an important role in one’s emotional state. It is never easy to decide what to expect from who and when. Generally the initial idea is that you’d want people to like you and you would try hard to make them feel the same way. I believe until you get yourself completely into an environment you are in sub-conscious state of mind. So it is very important for you to make wise decisions at good times. You need to speak words in such a way that you don’t feel like taking them back later on. Moreover, we would go and talk to someone very nice and would leave our heart and mind to that person or to that situation or the moment. Later on we start thinking differently and we regret our own generosity and we wish to take everything back and we fail. Such things appear when we forget our inner self and try to become someone you’ve ever been before. At the end of the day you feel lost and lonely, which is normal but that doesn’t have to be the case all the times. But disappointment is gonna be there. It is difficult but yet ideal that the ‘Hello’ once you begin shouldn’t reach to a disappointing ‘Goodbye’. Sometimes goodbye is the only way but it doesn’t have to be so hard. But truth is you can’t do much about it. It’s a magical thing. You would wish to let them happen and in the end you regret. Regretful feeling is not permanent. All it takes is to stick on the road and make your way. Whatever is lost can be brought back. For, What goes around, comes around.